WHY? WHY THE HELL CAN'T I JUST GET ON WITH LIFE THAN JUST SUFFER FROM SHIT THAT'S AROUND ME?!?! I can't cope with life anymore, no matter what happens, no matter how many times they say I'll make it through with no problem, BUT ALL THIS SHIT JUST COMES BACK AND GETS WORSE EVERY FUCKING TIME! WHY THE FUCK WAS I EVEN BORN AND BECOMING THIS? I CAN'T STAND THIS SHIT NO MORE, these fuckin pills I'm on are working kind of but that doesn't mean every single fucking day, its all this shit around me thats pissing me off and letting me down. I dunno how to fucking manage in life, cos I'm living in hell at the fucking moment. I FUCKING GIVE UP, I TRY TO BE SO FUCKING CONFIDENT AND SHIT BUT IT NEVER FUCKING WORKS!

I just don't know what to do anymore, I can't get any fucking respect round here, I can never get on and I'm sick and fucking tired of people giving me no fucking respect and spitting on my door et-fucking-cetra, I'M ALWAYS THE FUCKING TARGET ROUND HERE! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME ANYMORE! I FUCKING HATE MY FUCKING LIFE! IT'S BEEN DESTROYED, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING BELIEVE ANYMORE, DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING BACK TO COLLEGE DUE TO THIS SHIT OCCURING AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME, WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA DO WHEN I LEAVE? I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO, I'VE BEEN SUFFERING, STRUGGLING AND TRAILING BEHIND FOR ALL THESE FUCKING YEARS AND I JUST SEEM TO GET WORSE! No matter how much they say "Oh, your life will get better!" FUCK RIGHT! LIFE HAS GOTTEN FUCKING WORSE, even when I try to settle down from shit, I just wanna be gone for good, I don't deserve to fucking live anymore, all I get is bullshit every fucking hour.